Stirring things up.....

I guess I am starting to get the hang of this blogging thing - as you can see the townhouse pictures made it up. Although I did get an email from Steve saying Townhouse Pictures?. My intent was to include them in some of the posts that I wrote when we were showing the house - but I didn't really work out for me. So for now they are just out there.

In other blogging news....I had an epiphany this morning on the train. It takes a very solid/sturdy person to put yourself out there in blog format for the world to read and comment on. I am relatively new to reading other people's blogs. I got hooked on Kate's website LippoldtHaus.com when they first were constructing their new house and was captivated by all of the pregnancy updates over the last year.

Kate's site also introduced me to dooce.com - which every once in a while I get caught up on their adventures. But really that's about it.

What I have come to realize is that it is possible to use this format as your opinion board. For example, Kate has commented on a few controversial articles, commercials that annoy her and comments people make to pregnant women. Dooce.com became famous because the author was fired from her job for the comments she made about co-workers and her job.

In sucking all of this in, I find myself treading lightly on things. If I truly feel passionate about a topic (which I am sure some day I will find time to think about things outside of my own sphere), I think it is reasonable to comment. In light of Dooce, I have elected to not comment on my job, co-workers, etc. As many "funny" thoughts as I have in my head - it is just not worth putting them out there.

What I am left with - is lots of thoughts around how things in my life situations, family and friends make me feel. It's great to write about how proud I was of my brother-in-law yesterday, who became a Doctor of Veterinary Medicine. It's not so acceptable to write about being annoyed with your mom (no mom this was just an example and Happy Mother's Day BTW!). Unless you are willing to suffer the consequences.

So you walk a fine line. The things that consume 90% of my brain on most days are not blogable (is that even a word?). Plus at this point the 2 people who actually read this (Steve and Kate) are not the ones I am worried about hurting/offending. But what if - Steve or I run for political office? Or other family does read this? Or I write something that people other than my own family and friends care to read about (suddenly feeling very exposed to the world).

I guess what I have discovered is that this format can be what you make of it - which is why I am sure in time I will read many other blogs that are more controversial, interesting or dare I say "truthful" than what I write about how I am feeling/doing, etc. The one key difference I see between my situation and the other blogs I have read - is that these women are mothers or where on their way to motherhood (Kate please note - I did read your blog pre-conception - just not as often!)

I know I think PorTillo is the most interesting and wonderful dog in the world - but as previously stated - not exciting enough to blog about all of the time. Kids on the other hand - are a totally different story. Grandparents, Aunts, Uncles, Friends and Neighbors do want to read about how new parents are adjusting, gross/funny poop stories, and those moments of "can you believe he/she said/did that?"

Perhaps I will look back on this format and note that life was more interesting post-kids. My fellow bloggers comments seem to support that!

Townhouse Pictures

It's May, already ?

A few months ago, a bride-to-be started a blog about her upcoming adventures. She was non-chalant about how much lay ahead for her and seemed almost excited for the challenge.

Under every cool, calm and collected bride lies a beast named "bridezilla". As much as I, er I mean the very put-together bride-to-be, seems to "have it all together", there comes a point when you are just ready to chuck it all out the window and elope.

This morning - I had the feeling of how did I let everything spiral out of control? Granted the wedding is not tomorrow, nor is it even next week - but suddenly it feels as though I am so far behind that I will need to spend every waking moment doing wedding stuff, moving or cleaning 108. But perhaps it is not far from the truth.......

The "plan" was to get through the selling the house stuff in order to then focus again on the wedding planning. I had a few days off work for the beginning of this month - so I figured May 1st would be the day it all came together. I could get the info for the rehearsal, email stuff for the showers, stop by the florist one more time, and about a hundred other little things that keep piling up. Unfortunately, May1st came and went without so much a load of laundry done as I used my day off to lay on the couch and sleep because I wasn't feeling well.

Obviously, I needed the rest and I am glad I was at home and not at work - but it put me behind. That Thursday I ended up working instead of staying home and Friday's garage sale preparation took up a whole day. Saturday was the garage sale and Sunday was rip up the carpet day.

Nine days into the month and I have very little to show for it. Steve has been feeling under the weather the last few days - so I can only delegate so much to him. So today has been catch up day - with each phone call, email and to do scratched off my list I feel a little better. I know just as any sane person does that it will all get done and Steve has given full rights to be in uber-bitch mode the last few days - I just didn't want to be this stressed about any of it.

So, I have learned my lesson - wedding planning needs to be almost a daily to do and cannot be put on the back burner for too long. Thank goodness I have family and friends that will listen to me as a morph in and out of a bridezilla like phase.